Our First Day

Dear Love — What would you have me know today?

Hey babe I know you’re nervous about this and I know that you know that it’s right. It’s ok to be nervous. It’s ok to worry about what you might discover if you listen to me.

I do wonder why you’re so afraid.

I have nothing scary to share.

Only things you already know deep inside you. That you and I are both love. I am love, you are love. You are good. You matter. You are enough.

Everything you have in your life that you question is not because you or any of it is not good enough.

That’s all your conditioning.

I want you you to know how true that is babe.

These ideas you have in your head that the grass is greener or that you’re doing it all wrong are swirling around because our society has designed it that way. They are not from your deepest knowing. Your deepest knowing knows what’s important.

It’s me, babe. I love you unconditionally because YOU are love too. WE are fucking IT.

It’s nothing fancy. It’s not the stuff, it’s not the people, it’s not the spiraling. Just you. That’s it. I want you to know how true that is.

I know you’ve discovered it before, when you lost Hope. You read Untamed during your grief and you let so many things fall that didn’t serve you anymore (it’s why you want to read that book over and over again, but it wasn’t the book that did it, it was YOU).

I was right there with you whispering.

I know you heard those whispers and I’m so proud of you for listening. I know you hear the whispers now and you’re afraid to listen. You don’t want to hurt anyone or anything, so you continue to question the whispers I’m sharing with you.

That is absolutely ok. Only YOU know when is the right time to act on all the things I share with you.

I only ask that when they become overwhelming and I share the same things over and over and it feels like shouting, ask WHY you don’t want to listen.

If it’s because you don’t think it’s right, that’s ok.

And if it’s because you know it’s right and you know it will be hard, that’s ok too.

But it’ll be hard either way, love. So let’s start doing hard shit that actually gets us closer to each other rather than further apart shall we?

These big bubbles on the water stopped me in my tracks. More of these moments, please.